Divine Assistance

I was walking with a burden this week. No bigger or smaller than anyone else’s, it was just a burden. The kind that takes up residence sometimes and refuses to leave.

So on Sunday, I asked the Universe for help—“Help me find peace with this,” I said out loud as I made my way along the path. But the burden voiced its opinions loudly for most of the hour…with much repetition. Near the end of my walk, a sturdy breeze wound its way through the trees, up the path, into my face and through my hair. “Cool your temper,” it whispered, “Shhhhhhh.”

On Monday, the burden returned, early in the morning and sat with me all day. I went to the woods and asked the Universe again—“Help me find peace with this,” wondering if she would listen to my request this time. Near the footbridge, a butterfly floated back and forth, and I asked her to come closer. She flitted here and there for a while, then sat gently down, right in front of me, for several shutter snaps. “It will come to you,” the Universe whispered, “Have patience.”

On Tuesday, the burden returned once more. “What about this? What about that? Remember this? Remember that?,” it demanded, getting heavier and heavier as I walked. “Help me find peace with this,” I asked again, looking up to the sky for some kind of guidance. Above me, eight ospreys danced and sang–making great joyful loops in the sky. “Let it go,” the Universe whispered, “Find joy.”

On Wednesday, the burden returned again. But it was quieter now. Not as intrusive, but still around enough to notice. “I have to find peace with this,” I said out loud as I watched my steps along the path. There, in front of me, was a heart-shaped rock—set out as if to catch my eye. “Some things are more important,” the Universe whispered, “Love.”

I tucked the rock in my pocket and have felt lighter ever since.

©2012, Jen Payne

14 thoughts on “Divine Assistance

  1. Your reference to the butterfly reminds me of Nathaniel Hawthorne’s words: “Happiness is a buterfly, which when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which if you sit down quietly, may alight on you.” Keep the rock in your pocket, and sit down quietly…

    1. Lovely quote! Thank you!

      (I spend 20 minutes sitting by a log playing hide-and-seek with a turtle this week. I didn’t get pictures, though. He was much better at the game than I was!)

  2. As time passes, burdens seem not so overwhelming. They are a real bother. Then they become annoyances, and then comes a time, hopefully, when you say, “Why did I worry so?”
    I hope this was just a beautiful post. If not, I hope things are better. :-)

    1. I don’t so much mind burdens I can “fix” or change on my own. It’s the ones about acceptance and surrender that get the most walking time. But they all do seem to work themselves through, don’t they?

      Thank you for your kind thoughts…

  3. the Universe responds with grace and beauty. We’re not always so good at noticing or truly hearing though. I love that you persisted in asking for peace about this burden. Some things are like that,we wake up every morning and pick them up to carry around all day. sigh.

  4. Beautiful.
    The butterfly answered. The breeze and the rock answered.
    Thank you for sharing with us — and hope your burden is lighter and lighter until it vanishes away.

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