I’ve been working on “manifesting” for a while now. The idea that if you put something out there—offer up a need or request, ask for assistance—you will manifest, or make real, that very thing.
Is this praying? Perhaps.
But even that practiced form of manifesting feels abstract for a left-brain-leaning, right-brain person such as me. I’m on a computer most of the day—when I need something or want something to happen, I just push a button.
But there are no buttons for some of the things we hope for: safe travels, good health, peace of mind, courage.
And there are no buttons for some of the things to which we aspire.
And so, I’ve been working on manifesting. Last May, I manifested up some hot pink spray paint, but that’s kind of like David Copperfield pulling a coin from behind his ear. What if I want to make the Statue of Liberty disappear?
So I keep practicing.
Last Fall, I manifested a parking space.
Last week, I asked for something bigger.
Last week I asked for something bigger and I got it!
But here’s my dilemma. It has strings attached. Big, thick, tangled ethical strings.
I am reminded of that parable about the man trapped on a roof during a flood. While he’s praying to God, there are several attempts to rescue him but he refuses. He dies, and when he gets to heaven, he asks God “Why didn’t you save me?” And God says, “What are you talking about, I sent you a rowboat and a helicopter?”
I don’t want to be the one second-guessing divine intervention here. But if I ask, and the rowboat that arrives is made from indigenous rainforest trees and the helicopter was built by child laborers…
Yup. We’re talking those kind of strings. I manifested something I need, but the consequence of accepting it means compromising things I believe.
My head is struggling with this. My heart is not.
So as the left-brain debates and the right-brain digs in, “we” are reminded of a lovely manifesto I read several years ago by professor and author Brené Brown:
Pray that I make the most authentic decision.
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Authenticity text and art © Brené Brown. You can download your own Authenticity manifesto and other inspiring things at Bréne’s website.
Photo ©2011, Jen Payne, Rockport, Mass.